a handful of muses

been euphoric these few days. basking in the joy of being accepted into the prestigious medical faculty, thinking about the high loan amount required, disseminating the news to all my friends... it's been a whirlwind journey since i opened the webpage proclaiming my acceptance last Saturday.

in retrospect, i've felt particularly satisfied upon having this childhood dream of mine fulfilled. but i must state for the record that i've felt rather smug about proving the people who doubted my capabilities wrong. BUT, the key word here is BUT, i didn't get into medicine based on my own capabilities. it's God. He has made it all possible. without Him, the screwed up interview would remain screwed up, and nothing else. in my pride and excitement, i've forgotten that it's not my accomplishment. it's God's will and His blessings and a LARGE dose of His grace. so i say, Hallelujah! Praise the Lord. i would do well to keep this in mind and not let the glory of being a medical student get over my senses. i pray that the Lord would continue to bless me with the ability to be a compassionate and knowledgeable doctor, and to serve my patients well.

i recall asking pammie-san why she suddenly turned into a pious, fervent Christian when she was abominably blasphemous back in the good ole swinging bitch-fest days. i couldn't understand how a rebellious, punk-ish, half-goth-half-rock-chick-half-non-binte-genius could metamorphosize into a reserved, sensible girl in such a short period of time. and apparently, now i know. it's in my heart all along - the consciousness of the missing part of our lives. it's the presence of God in our souls. the Holy Spirit in our bodies. the gratefulness for the death of Jesus Christ on the cross for all of us sinners. it's such a blatant truth, and it's such good news, that it's crippling. it's breathtaking. when i understood it, in that split nanosecond, i simply couldn't do more than gasp at the sudden heaviness in my chest. and you just can't help but cry in joy, in ecstasy, for what the Lord has done to redeem us sinners. but only if we repent, ya? so repent we must.

and of course, reading those one-quote-a-day inspirational guidebooks helped me a lot in linking significant biblical references to my daily life. it's thought provoking and absolutely touching. never once have i been able to go through a month's worth of quotes without crying. and twice i've been sniffling silently on the train cos it's my train-reading material :) sigh. but i'm not perplexed or ashamed of my loss of control over my tearglands. it's ineveitable. knowing the grace... it's just overwhelming.

just had a huddleclique swim-dinner congregation! it was excellent. i recommend the rojak at clementi (behind the wet market hawker centre), it's frighteningly good. the sweet sauce is great! and apparently i tasted hints of citrus-y lemon in the turnips... so that's how the uncles prevents the turnips form turning brown... :)

alright! gotta go sleep. will update more soon! :)

matriculation

OFFICIAL ANNOUNCEMENT

THE NANA HAS BEEN OFFERED MEDICINE.

OH.MY.GOSH.

all i can say is, PRAISE THE LORD. PRAISE THE LORD. PRAISE THE LORD. and i thank Him for hearing my prayers.

a bit more musing

hi all!

haven't posted a proper blog in ages, i'm afraid. too engrossed in the tsk-worthy world of msn chats to engage my neural pathways in some serious acetylcholine kicking :) the horror of forgetting the name of the class of chemicals that cause semen to clog and increase uterine contractions in the female genital tract! (it's prostaglandins, by the way, if u need to refresh your memory as well :P)

i hear resounding groans (and some distant wok-pan-hammer-shifting sounds)... i take that as a cue for a temporary cease in biology discussions. *dodges the first flying pan*

Arsenal against Barcelona tomorrow morning at 2.30am!!!!! i can already imagine what the bulk of the topics up for discussion on tomorrow's morning express would be, given glenn's fervent support for Arsenal *GO, ARSENAAAAL!!!* and FD's neutralistic stand on the match. *cue deadpan voice* *yes, yes, glenn. go, arseeeeenalll...*

i'll be extending my job attachment at e lab till end of june, by which the SINE paper had better be ready or else i'll just plunge my head in the autoclave and turn it on full blast. (or my boss' heads) (whichever is more cost-effective, hahaha :D)

flu bug making its rounds, from the labs on the fifth floor down to my lab. my poor colleague has been out of action for a week. and still doing the headache-fatigue-puking thing. i guess it'll take a while for her to recover. meanwhile i'm eating more fruits!!!! :) healthy baby!

swimming with a glider is straining. i felt my arm muscles creak when i was frantically stroking them like a spasming frog whilst trying to catch up with e KNW :) atta girl! u're a good glider.

chalet next friday in honour of the 5th anniversary of The Day a Tiny Purplish Package Swaddled in White Cloth was Delivered to Our Family. the aforementioned purplish package has now expanded under hydration, nutrition and TLC to a robust, boisterous female preschooler. i AM immensely proud of her.

alright. that's all for now, folks. kn got into nursing (atta girl!), pammie into FASS, and denise is smugly reminding that i have NO acceptance from any uni whereas she has THREE unis waiting for her to make her coveted, important decision. All the best, dear. but let's try to be a bit more sensitive to the less-fortunate, shall we? no haughtiness, please! and of course, our prof zhuang is eying the prestigious wellesley women's college. way to go! and with an A*STAR scholarship as well! :)

i ought to consider opening a fish shop under the sponsorship of all my highly-illustrious friends. here's what i call true SUCKERSHIP :)

alcoh~~*wha~??*

i've just discovered the beauty of alcoholic beverages... they rock.

they suffuse u in a warm lava-ish glow and make ur cheeks turn into groundlights for landing airplanes :)

*hic* i'll write more when i'm more sober. hahaha!